plans change, people change.

So this post was actually one of the things that I needed to do on my check-list. That’s me, forever ticking off the things on my list. Adding things on, crossing things off and keeping busy.

For me, I’ve always been someone who is driven and motivated to achieve the goals that I set out for myself. My hopes, plans, goals and dreams are what I endeavour to achieve and succeed in. Often it’s the challenge that really drives me and pushes me to excel and dream bigger or reach higher. I know what I want and I will do whatever it takes to achieve it. I work hard and once I set my mind to it I’ll be sure to prove to everyone and especially to myself that I can do it. I take pride in my level of organisation and in my ambitions. In saying this though, the events of last year was a real humbling experience for me. My strengths were like a double edged sword and I found that it also became my weakness.

So as much as I love to make plans and set out to achieve them, no matter the level of organisation or how motivated or determined I am, plans are always susceptible to change. Sometimes change is inevitable or beyond our control. Change is a funny thing that we can’t avoid. We have a choice in how we approach it. We can fear it or embrace it, look forward to it or dread it, welcome it or resist it, deny it or acknowledge it.

We ourselves are constantly, evolving, growing and learning. People in our lives change and our relationships change along with them. I’ve been able to witness such growth in my by esther. sisters. Truly, I’ve seen each of them become more of themselves and I’ve seen the beauty of the feminine genius within each of them. I myself have recognised so many changes in my life and in myself. I’m blessed to have family and friends who have really supported me, challenged me and kept me grounded. I’m really starting to find myself again and everyday I strive to be more of the person that Christ calls me to be.

So many changes happened in the past year, which has led me to where I am now. I’m adjusting to changes in new and existing relationships, I’m starting to make new plans, I’ve begun to see all the good and the graces that have come from such big changes in my life. I’ll be starting in a new role in a new workplace. One of the biggest things that I learnt from last year is not to get too ahead of myself, not to dwell so much on the past or look too much to the future but to see what’s in front of me. I’m really learning to embrace God in the present and to lean into him in every moment. I know that I don’t have to go far or look far to find him because he is right here with me, where I am right now and that’s where he will be in every moment of my life. Life is crazy, uncertain, sometimes scary and very unpredictable but I trust in His plans for me and no matter how many plans I make for my life I can always be sure that the plans that God has for me are much greater. I have no doubt in this.

So here’s to this year! To making plans, to all the changes that we will no doubt encounter, to living every moment to the fullest and most importantly to embracing, living and knowing that in every moment God is present and right there by our side.

rin.